No Whining Allowed!

Can I be honest? Today was a suck-ass day. The details don't really matter — let's just say that by 10:30 a.m. I wanted to come home and crawl back in bed until tomorrow.

And it was one of those days where things just piled upon each other, one by one by one. I even know that at a certain point it was more about interpreting things in a negative light than horrible events raining down on me, but by that time the source of the negativity didn't matter anymore. It was all just shitty.

I was going to work out after work — I hear that makes some people feel better. But thinking about it just made me feel worse. I had suffered enough at work and needed to be as far away from the building as possible (the gym's downstairs). (I do need to clarify: This was not a day about me hating my work. This was a day about me hating myself and how I do my work.)

So I came home and gave myself an hour to pout, and now it's down to business. If I'm not doing what I should be, then it's time to do some homework, get some practice and get it done. What's feeling sorry for myself going to do, except make me feel worse?

Sometimes easier said than done, but I'm really trying — I swear! In the meantime, as I'm going through my RSS, I come across the post, "You Cannot Die," by Julien Smith of In Over Your Head.

Smith starts out discussing how, because of all of our precautions (or is it despite them?), it's actually very hard to be die or seriously be injured through normal life activities. Then he takes it further:

In this world, you cannot die in any environment.
You cannot die socially because the social fabric smoothes over most mistakes with time.
You cannot die on the web because failure is cheap and the worst that happens is obscurity.
We are in a world where the chance of permanent, uncorrectable failure has dropped to zero.

Smith continues on to make a point that —obviously — has nothing to do with the day I've just had, but this is exactly what I needed. Considering all of my screw-ups of the day (many real, some imagined), the above is really good news and will help me sleep tonight. I don't know if those I work most closely with would agree, but one can always pretend, right?

So, how did your day go?